Wrappin’ up 2018 and warmly welcoming 2019!
Hello pals! It’s December 31st already and I can’t believe that 2018 is over! Not that I’m complaining, it’s been a really crazy year filled with so many ups and downs, I’m definitely ready for the fresh start of 2019. It’s just amazing how I feel like this year slipped by so quickly while I was dealing with the things life threw my way.
I was going to write a full on ‘2018 favorites’ here because I honestly can’t resist things like that. I always watch my favorite YouTuber’s yearly fav’s (after watching all of their monthly fav’s all year. No big deal.) The more I thought about it though, the more I realized that 2018 taught me a lot and I’d like to talk a little bit about that. The deal is, most of the lessons I learned helped me grow and made me realize that I am tougher than I thought I was, but I’m not entirely sure that I want to dedicate a whole post on looking back. One of the things I learned this year is that leaving things where they are is sometimes the best thing to do. So, with that, I’m leaving 2018 where it is. I’ll hit some of the high points, but I’m most excited to talk about 2019 and what’s to come!
2018 was a difficult but absolutely amazing year! So many wonderful things happened while so many terrible things also happened. I revisited parts of myself I’d thought that I’d gotten past and realized a lot about the nature of growth. I also decided to take a risk on myself and dedicate my blog space to my future—and it’s been the best choice I made for myself. I stopped writing fiction which has proven to be one of the more terrible choices and I am definitely going to have to revisit fiction writing in 2019. James and I moved and one of my uncles moved back to Texas from California after almost 30 years of being away. One of my uncles got engaged. My brother met an awesome woman and moved out with her. I made new friends with some of the most wonderful people, got to see three of my favorite people graduate college, (Shoutout Dianna, Michaela, and Ashley!!) and got to graduate myself. I went to Austin City Limits, saw some of my favorite people and got to live a little luxuriously for a few days. I stopped being scared of taking jumps and proved to myself that I am no long the kind of person that gets scared and runs away when the going gets tough—I’ve become the person who gets going and works hard.
2018 was a lot of things and my family, friends, and I went through a lot—a lot of which I really just can’t disclose, it’s still hard to talk about—but it was absolutely marvelous. Hindsight is 20/20, so it’s a lot easier to say this now, but for every bad thing that happened in 2018, something even more amazing happened. I am thankful for every single moment this year, and while I can’t help but hope that 2019 has way less obstacles, I feel confident in myself, my family, and my friends and our ability to take it on!
With that said, here’s a bunch of my 2018:
Farewell 2018, thanks for the memories!
Now for the good stuff: 2019 I am ready! I’ve got plans and ideas and goals! I’m not one for resolutions, but I am always down for a good goal and this year I have a ton.
School has always been my number one, but since I’ve graduated, I want to look forward into the new year and know that I have goals and plans and checkpoints to meet. While I’m not making any resolutions (ie. “go to the gym more”) I am making measurable goals that I want to see myself meet by certain points in the year. An example is a weight loss goal. I want to lose 10 pounds in 6 months which is super easy to do if I stick to eating well and being minimally active. I also want to learn French—I don’t have to be fluent, but I’d like to at least hold a conversation—by December of next year. I’d also like to pay off a certain amount of my student debt back by December. I have personal, work-based, and social goals but they’re all things that I don’t have to beat myself down for if I don’t get immediate results with because they’re all things I have checkpoints for. Really, I think having goals is all about being healthy and realistic with them and so that was one of the things I kept in mind as I started plotting out goals for 2019.
I decided to write my goals for the new year down on the first page of my planner. It looks a little goofy because I wrote it at the top and there’s definitely space at the bottom but I wanted to save space. If I complete a couple of my goals, I want to set more! I want to always have a few things in the works to keep pushing toward, so I kept some free space at the bottom for future Bridgid who might have some new ideas.
I, like so many other millennials, am scared to commit to big things and that’s mostly for fear of failure. This list, for me, is something that I think is realistic and exciting. I want to prove to myself that I can stick to something and finish it all the way through (like I did with college)! Because of that, a big thing for me next year is consistency. In fact, I’m going to call it my “word of the year.” Last year’s “word of the year” was growth, and I fully intend of keeping growth for 2019 too! I think growth is vital. However, I really want to keep up with my goals and keep up with my expectations of myself and so I’m calling 2019 the year of consistency. Showing up, being committed, being excited, and being there for myself.
I mentioned earlier that I like to make measurable goals, but consistency and growth are things that are harder to measure. Honestly they’re sort of ambiguous and they can mean a lot of different things but that’s what I like about them. I can decide what “consistency” means for me. Thats what I did for growth—in 2017 and 2018 I put a really big emphasis on growth and I have grown immensely in the last two years. Maybe not everyone sees it, but I do. When I plot out “personal goals” I plot them out for myself, and while the betterment of myself obviously affects those around me, these goals are always for me. Personally, I think everyone should do this. Personal goals that help you better yourself—even if no one else sees you doing it for most the year—really help and I think that there’s something everyone wants to work on and so I challenge everyone to do that too! Work on something, do something, try to be better for yourself first and foremost!
A few things I’m really looking forward to in the New Year is picking up a hobby. I want to start taking cycling classes at Soul Cycle, but I won’t be able to start that goal until I get a job. What I want to do until then is morning meditations and yoga flow. I want to spend some quiet time with myself in the morning, pre-breakfast and pre-coffee, where I meditate on my dreams and my plans for the day. I know that when I start working that’ll be harder to do, and so when I can start cycling classes, that’ll become my ‘me’ time. James and I got an Echo Dot for Christmas so a new part of my morning routine that I’ll be taking into 2019 is listening to my flash briefing (essentially my handpicked news) from my echo dot every morning!
I’m also hoping to figure out what I want to do in 2019. I haven’t decided on taking grad school completely off the table, but I’d like to get out into the world first and explore my other passions. I’ve loved school for so long, but I don’t want to get trapped in the academic bubble just yet. I’m excited to take on a job and discover other things I love. That’s something this blog did for me in 2018—it taught me how much I love interacting with people and creating things and being a part of something bigger than myself. I learned so much about branding and making moves on social media, and while I have so much more to learn, I have the base to really grow myself and my brand in 2019! I hope that I end up getting a job in PR doing social media of sorts in 2019, and that’s a big goal of mine too. I want to be happy in a fulfilling job that I love and I know that to so many I sound like a idealistic child when I say that, but I don’t care—I refuse to become cynical and unhappy in my life. I will always strive to be able to be happy and excited about what I’m doing and so I’m taking 2019 to figure out exactly what that means for me! I can’t wait.
Overall, I think 2019 is going to be a promising year. There’s just something telling me that good things are coming and that I need to be excited and just wait, have faith in the future, and keep pushing forward and so I will.
I also want to take a moment and thank you all. It’s been an exciting year, and my blog has taken a turn in a new direction and there’s been nothing but unending support and love. I might still be a little baby blogger, but I know how terrible a place the internet can be and I just want to say thank you all for being so supportive and loving in the last year. I love this webspace I’ve created. I become more proud and excited about what it’s becoming every day as I evolve and grow and change and my blog does the same.
Thank for you reading, for checking on me, for waiting for a long time during this last semester for posts, and for being so lovely when you’re here. I’m forever indebted to you!
Happy New Year, y’all. Please stay safe tonight! Don’t drink and drive. Get an Uber or a Lyft or sleep where you are! Be safe and have fun!
“For last year’s words belong to last year’s language
And next year’s words await another voice.”
― T.S. Eliot, Four Quartets